Hope always dies...

Hope always dies last, even after you my love. I still have hope that you will return.

In some ways...

In some ways, life is easier without you. There are fewer things to manage, less to spend money on, and not as much to clean up. I still feel your presence everywhere. I guess what I miss the most, however, is the romance - you saying, "I love you," or "Come here honey." With you all the way up in heaven, I feel like I'm in a long-distance one way relationship in which I have to be patient for us to be reunited.

Sweet pea, did...

Sweet pea, did I kiss you that last morning? Tell you how much I love you? (God, how I love you.) Forgive me - I didn't know it'd be your last day...that you'd always be 6, never 7...in first grade...and that we'd never finish Harry Potter. I didn't know time had run out. Thank you for the peace, strength and purpose you've given me. I'd be a wreck without it.

I am cold...

I am cold and lonely without you. I miss your sweetness, your everything. I breathe your memory.

I look up...

I look up to the sky and thank you when good things happen to me. I look up at the sky and ask you for help when bad things happen to me. I am getting used to living with you this way. I like it. Thanks for being there up in the sky.