My God I...

My God I can't believe it. I'm sitting here searching the Internet for messages from you. I call your cell phone just to hear your voice. I know that you are free and in a much better place, but I feel so empty inside knowing that you're just not there anymore. I didn't call you enough, didn't show you just how much you mean to me. Please God, let him know how much I loved him. Nobody will ever make me laugh the way you did, the kind of laughing that left my mouth sore. I miss the way you danced around without a care in the world. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.