Sunday, April 6, 2008

I would never...

I would never have believed grief is good in any way, shape or form, until I experienced it at your passing. For three and a half years I was locked in combat with myself, and the world around me as it was changing. Now I have adapted, opened my eyes and learned I am someone different; newer, stronger, wiser and hopefully more loving and compassionate. Thank you for allowing me to experience all I am meant to be. You gave me a little push on this journey I have undertaken and it is so much more than I could ever have envisioned for myself.

2 comments:

k1956 said...

I can't tell you how much I appreciate your simple words. They express what I have been experiencing for the last 2yrs, something that no one could understand when I tried to explain. I've been fighting the process of changing, of letting go, of realizing I'll never be the same. I've been waiting for my dad to pass, then bargaining with God not to let him go. I've been spending all this time fighting everything until I can hardly stand to wake up in the morning and fight some more. So now I've began to change my thoughts and actions an live in a way that gives life permission to happen, to be more accepting and realize that it doesn't mean failure or faithlessness but growth and maturity. I'm starting to feel like myself again.

k1956 said...

I can't tell you how much I appreciate your simple words. They express what I have been experiencing for the last 2yrs, something that no one could understand when I tried to explain. I've been fighting the process of changing, of letting go, of realizing I'll never be the same. I've been waiting for my dad to pass, then bargaining with God not to let him go. I've been spending all this time fighting everything until I can hardly stand to wake up in the morning and fight some more. So now I've began to change my thoughts and actions an live in a way that gives life permission to happen, to be more accepting and realize that it doesn't mean failure or faithlessness but growth and maturity. I'm starting to feel like myself again.