I can feel...

I can feel your presence in the universe and that gives me some comfort, but there is also pain because we cannot be together and share our lives in the way that I had hoped and imagined. My dear, sweet little boy, you shared my body for a short time, but you will be in my heart forever....

This journey from...

This journey from the depths of sadness to the heights of revelation makes your death acceptable, finally.

Young soldiers like...

Young soldiers like you continue to be killed every week. So handsome you were in your uniform, waving to us, making us believe that you were all doing what was right and in the interest of humankind. What is right about dying?

I feel you...

I feel you protecting me from time to time. When you are not there, I know that it's because I have to learn a lesson by myself, for myself. Thank you.

If you hadn't...

If you hadn't died, I wouldn't have met the second man of my dreams...

I long for...

I long for the days that we shared without caring about the future. These were the best times of my life, when we didn't feel like anything bad would ever happen. It was you with me, against the rest of the world. I miss you my darling, more than I could have ever imagined.

I am in...

I am in a state of shock, filled with "could haves," "would haves," and should haves." If only we had more time together. Oh God help me.

Grieving is addictive...

Grieving is addictive.

You are magical...

You are magical to me, so magical in fact that you appear sometimes only for a few seconds. Next time this happens, please stay a bit longer?

I hate being...

I hate being without you.

When I die...

When I die, my wish is to be with you in Heaven, as we never were on earth. In Heaven, I want to marry you. Do you accept my proposal?

Baby, I think...

Baby, I think it's time to tell you that I loved you, but that I never knew how to love you. Is this possible? Is it possible to love someone so much and not understand how that person needs to be loved?

I miss you...

I miss you already. I didn't think it would be this way, but wow! I wish you were still here.

Fleeting was your...

Fleeting was your existence on this earth, and like the snowflakes that melt before they touch the ground, you have left too soon to make an impact.

You gave me...

You gave me love I never recognized until long after you died. I gave you what I thought was love, but realize now was selfishness. Lesson learned.

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I believe more...

I believe more in yesterday than in today.

You were so...

You were so lovable.

Well, it's over...

Well, it's over now. You walked away from me at the airport, and that was the last time I saw you. I had a bad feeling about that day. I feel empty now, as if I have vomited every last bit of my insides. I am skin and bones now. I hate eating. It reminds me too much of us - our nights out at our favourite restaurant, or just ordering pizzas and eating them on the bed together watching television. It would pain you to see me in this state. You would force me to eat, to get stronger, and to manage my life in your absence.

I have been...

I have been dreaming about you all week. Strange, since it has been over two years since you died. It is as if you have stepped into my life for a little visit, and I love it.

You used to...

You used to say that everything was fixable.

I wished you...

I wished you were dead for so long, and now it has actually happened. I only feel a little bit guilty because you treated me with such disrespect that I have few feelings left for you. You were a miserable human being who deserved everything you got. Now I can breathe.

You had a...

You had a good long life, so people say that it's almost acceptable that you passed away. But I didn't have the fortune to know you for long. Your death is not acceptable to me.

Thank you for...

Thank you for being my friend. Even now I love you still and more than ever. You are always with me.

Grief, unlike you...

Grief, unlike you, will never die. Only those who have lived through it understand this.

I would have...

I would have never had to date others because I wouldn't have felt lonely. I am sorry for this. I didn't know you were suffering so much inside. If I could do it all again, I would only be with you.

We mourn our...

We mourn our dead, even when we attend the funeral of someone we barely know, we bear witness to the grief of those around us, not as voyeurs but as people bound to a common fate.

I never knew...

I never knew you, but I saw you interviewed in a documentary shortly before you died serving our country overseas. I am writing to tell you that while I admire your patriotism, you should have never gone to war. As you look down upon you grieving family and friends from wherever you are, I hope you understand this now.

I can't believe...

I can't believe you're gone. I keep thinking that you will walk through the door and say, "Hi everybody!"

This just can't...

This just can't be happening. It can't be happening. I need you with me now. Please.

The shock of...

The shock of your death has left me unable to function properly. Words are sounds that do nothing to comfort me.

May you be...

May you be resting in peace my love.

Dear You, I...

Dear You,
I have had a hard time accepting that you are gone, and I am almost there. I am feeling good about moving on, although I know I will never forget you. It's hard to think that my memory of you will fade over time. I guess it's natural.

I don't miss...

I don't miss you that much. I don't miss your lies, your drama, your insecurity. Even your smile I don't miss. Your death, while a tragedy for some, is a relief to me.

I am sorry...

I am sorry you chose to end your life. My life is not the same without you. Perhaps you didn't think about this when you made the decision to leave this earth, but if you could see now how many people feel such a great loss, then you would understand that you never had to go away.

You never said...

You never said, "Good-bye," and because of this it's hard for me to move on.

I blow kisses...

I blow kisses in the wind hoping that they will reach you, and when the wind touches my face, I feel like my kisses have been reciprocated.

Kisses to you...

Kisses to you wherever you may be!

Good morning and...

Good morning and good night my love, xo

I hate you...

I hate you for leaving this earth.

Hi, I am...

Hi,
I am finally thinking of selling the house. It just isn't the same without you. I have to move on now. I'm sorry.

Since your death...

Since your death, there is a dark cloud that follows me around and rains on everything I do and everyone I touch.

I want to...

I want to join you as soon as possible.

Please let me...

Please let me know that wherever you are, everything is okay. I worry about you still.

I hope that...

I hope that you are making people laugh wherever you are. You always loved being the center of attention.

You gave me...

You gave me the world, and I thank you for that. You gave me misery, and I forgive you for that.

It's weird that...

It's weird that I will outlive you. I never thought this would happen. I always thought that you would be my older brother. I always thought that you were stronger than I was.

I know I'll...

I know I'll get over your death. I just don't know when. I feel the pain, and I recognize how it affects everything I do.

Autumn has hit...

Autumn has hit the city, and I feel more lonely than ever without you. There is no one to keep me warm. I miss your hugs.

If you had...

If you had only understood how much I loved you, you would have never done what you had done. I am sorry for not being perfect.

I miss the...

I miss the romance we used to have - the cuddles, the warmth, and the love. I have never felt so tired in my life.

We are taught...

We are taught how to save, not to lose lives. I am paralyzed not knowing what to do without you.

Well, what can...

Well, what can I tell you that you haven't probably already witnessed in one way or another. I can tell you that writing to you makes me feel happy, that writing to you makes me feel like you are here with me, and that writing to you makes me feel loved by you again. As painful as it is to know that you are gone, writing to you is a small respite from the terror of grief.

If I could...

If I could live with you again, I would show you that I am better now. You wouldn't suffer as you did, and you wouldn't kill yourself as you did. Your death punishes me daily.

No one has...

No one has touched me since you left.

I am not...

I am not mourning only the loss of you, but also the loss of time, the loss of the past. Our history is now just words, and the future without you is a theory.

I still smell you...

I still smell you
I still hear your laugh in my ear
Your golden rain, your gentle ways.

A rock, a shield, a star.
You still shine to me.

I love you Dad.

I almost walked...

I almost walked into the ocean to be with you. But as the water level reached my chin, I stopped. I thought of the torture of those around me when they would find out. I'm sorry. I can't yet be with you.

Now I see...

Now I see our closeness with the most purity. Now, after the storms have passed, I see what you meant when you said, "I love you." I woke up too late, and now it's too late for you to come back.

I hear your...

I hear your voice helping me through the difficult times. Thanks :)